Thursday, May 03, 2007

chairman of the bored

sorry i wasnt all things to all people
i aint st francis of assisi
i aint a lovelywonderful manne neither
not according to anyone
did i ever say that i was..?
i fucking put on my best show in london
i put my heart n soul into it
my heart n soul
no exageration
im sorry bout the dudes chair
there were no chairs i could see
backstage we had 2 sofas
and then some other jealous anonymous little prick jumps in
n people character assassinating me n ricky
one of my dearest friends....
i was there to play music
i was there to deliver
and i delivered it
cos it took all of us a long time to get there
the band and the audience
it was fucking monday night
we drove up from brighton
we got lost in london
we argued with each other
we loaded in
our soundman was sick n couldnt make it
we had a guy who'd never done it before
we had all the usual problems with our antique gear
we finally soundchecked just as wed run outta time
n yet
n yet
we played a blinder
im sorry if some people are disillusioned with me
ya got 2 choices
realise this: im not jesus christ
or
lets say fare thee well
i write this blogg
as a mixed media work
part diary
part fact
part fiction
part poetry
part bullshit
i dont pretend to be nothin' mister
im a peacenik
i abhor meat
i pity the poor saps who eat it
i am almost fifty three...im an olde boy
i am bitter nasty callous forgetful bastard sometimes
aint you?
and can ya admit it?
i make mistakes
i say n write things i regret
i do stupid things
sometimes things i intend as funny come out sad
and vice versa
im honest and you better believe it
no agenda except my own self aggrandizement
and saying obvious things like
the iraqi war n all wars are an abomination
guns are stupid things that are meant to kill
and lets face it
they very often do
i am anti western anglo saxon imperialistic bullshit
i think blair AND howard AND bush are worms
all bombs are terrorism
who would jesus bomb?
i am a load of badde things
dont you think i know that?
but the fucking suggestion that i was ignoring a sick guy
while i was swanning around is a joke that is in actuality
not worth defending
i dont control who comes back
i dont control where chairs go
im just an olde tired bass player
turning up
n doing it as i know best
and trying
trying so hard
im sorry youve gone and painted this picture of me
you rained on my parade now
just like ive presumably rained on yours
thanks
theres always gotta be a catch...
overcoming all odds
we played a good one in london
and next day i have to see this...
oh well
i am home at last
uneventful flights
watch stranger than fiction
which COULDA been good
but was actually half baked n under realised
muse?
yes nevets i was unsatisfied with this film
im afraid could only give it 2 n a half *s
oh dear well im gonna give it a 3***
because ...oh i dunno..it was ok
and then the illusionist
which i started watching too late
only about 25 mins
n we landed in syddley
i was hopin for a holding pattern...muse?
well nevets its got all the ingredients you like hasnt it
and that filter thing they do with the computers nowadays
but quite frankly the romantic angle was a little unlikely
so i can only give it so far 3n half ***s
oh well i disagree im given it 4****s ...so far
but i can see it could get errr ..schmaltzy
anyway
here i am back home
in a silent empty house
for 2 weeks
europe over
america?
a few big ifs?
dont count on it
thats what i'd say
tomorrow
im gonna give ya my impressions of the tour
my de briefing if you want it
you know
at anytime
if you dont like the stuff i write
you can stop reading
its ok
hell
i wont feel a thing
i wont even know
im just reminding you thats all

stevie bouy northern bondi wilderness
just back from the cliffs n the sea n the golf course n poo stack
where the frangipanies have disappeared
and the world looks more sombre
where i know the guys who work in the local shop
and those nice but noisy greek kidss under neath me
and my big white i box pumping out a weird shuffle
and my great friend glenny boy who sorted me out
the moment i got home and fed the fish for the doodle heads
and the most people here
they dont know i write a blogge that has had well over a half a million hits
or that i sold over a million records
nor that that i been narcomaniac n spent a night in jail once
they dont know im one of the best lyricists in my field in the world
it doesnt matter if i dont sell any records
you know its true
and ive flown for days n days n days
n stayed in more hotels
than all of ya reading this put together have
ive seen more of america than most americans
i was plugged into an amp n pumping out
my own mellifluous bass riffs
before a lotta ya were born
i aint so pretty anymore neeva
im looking my age, boyo
you tell me who dont when theyre this olde
but i can fucking jump about n sing my head off
for two hours while lugging that great big heavy
but ohh so beautiful straddle-various of a bass
my bass my familiar my other wife
oh when we start to lock in.....
i hadda life you cant imagine
unless you done this no one can
im not boasting
im not complaining
ive stayed in the best places
and ive stooped to the lowest
you want some truth
or some bullshit
i got both
you unravel it my friendss
you sort it out
i aint the best in the world
but on the other hand
im a rare commodity
cos despite what they say
i care
think about it
i care
n
i try
simple words
simple concept
sometimes i forget
but it aint cos im swanning around
like marie antoinenette
saying let em eat cake
thats not fucking true
i care
as much as i can
you know me
but i dont really know you
i care as much as i can
for people i dont really know
ok?
im sorry i made ya disgruntled
i cant be all things to all people it seems
i was trying to meet n greet the ones i did see
im shaking hands n kissing babies like ya wanted
doing the hard yards driving a van for thousands of ks
all thru city n dell n marsh n alp n plains n other planes
you may think ya know me....
but i putta lotta hard yakka into this thing
try being a fucking vegan for 3 weeks in europa
for a cuppla days i ate bread rolls n tomatoes all day
somedays i hadda put up with something with cheese or starve
you dont know the love n care i try to put in my words n songs

and i love what i do
and i give you the uncondescending best that i have
everytime
be it jack frost or hex or a poetry reading or a lyric or a blogg
(as i type this line grant comes on shuffle
what are the chances
i know grants been trying to contact me..
grant im still alive, i cant see you )
dont tell me i aint trying hard enuff
im committed
im committed to quality
im committed to the the strange n extraordinary
im committed to the electric guitar
im committed to bobby dylan n neil young n leonard cohen
n keith richards
im not in their league
but baby
thats how im planning to get olde
just like that
rocking n rocking on
whatever any of ya dont like about me
too badde
thats what it takes
take the badde with the johnny be goode
ive fucked up my own career with my stupid behaviour
im my own worst enemy
i dont need snide little comments from anonymouse
jealous little prick
i know who you are
and im gonna nail ya!
ha ha ha

129 comments:

fantasticandy said...

glad your'e home safe and well
killer,
i'm ok!
loadza luv,
andy L.

Cee said...

How kewl would it have been to have this random couch in the middle of the floor??
I think it would have started a new trend!
I'm in... and I don't count on anything or count for nothing.
There
is
no
ego
so
let
go

Anonymous said...

its OK

Anonymous said...

i think you're a handsome man. hey, that's the only time i've been a "straight"

you rock you roll you rule dude

r.

glad you won't stop making music anytime soon.


your side projects are amazing.

EARTHFRIEND said...

we are definitely our own worst enemy...
mjnjr

Anonymous said...

saturday night,11 pm abc.....love genx xxxxxxxx

MarkM said...

Hey Steve
I've gotta say something to turn all that negative stuff around, I don't comment all that often here as I don't usually feel I have something important enough to add...but....

You've inspired me plenty - reading your blog helped me get through a pretty rough year. Reading your thoughts on animal cruelty inspired me to stop eating meat (well I haven't given up the fish yet) - and I'm feeling so much better because of it. Listening to your music inspired me to start a band.

Now I'm no yes-man, I'm not gonna agree with absolutlely everything you say....but you're honest, you give the best you've got, you're a wordsmith and a poet, you're struggling against the odds to keep giving us new music that means something (particularly in the current musical climate)....the church are my inspiration to keep writing, playing and battling on. You've got yer moods - but that only makes you like the rest of us - well, it makes you like me at least, if some people don't like that, well it simply makes them delusional (because we're ALL like that)....You've got a spiritual side and you're a deep thinker and you're happy to share your more personal thoughts with the rest of us, and that's often an upbuilding thing on its own ....all in all what you give us is a gift and I'm happy to keep subscribing and to keep reading.

Nice to have you home safe and sound by the way.

Anonymous said...

hi sk,
Welcome back, I'm so happy you're back home safely, but so sad you had to come back and read those crap comments from yesterday. I wanted to write a long comment in your defence but chickened out. I know you'd never do something like that, you're a beautiful, caring person. Please keeep writing to us, there are people out here that love and respect you (well I do anyway!).
have a beautiful, relaxing day in sunny Bondi and hope you get over the jetlag soon!
Love you always,
Amanda

fantasticandy said...

here is a reproduction of my later post from yesterday.it was right at the end of yesterdays comments.
i haven't changed it in any way.


dear ricky,
of course i was offended.
quite frankly your original entry
at 11:29 pm was obnoxious.
i gave steve a mild 'ticking off'
and you have a 'hissy fit'.
get real.
grow up.
get a reality check.
steve owes me nothing.
i did'nt expect anything from the man.
i did'nt want any of his time.
i didn't want to hassle him in any way,
or the rest of the band, or any of their families, friends or guests
such as yourself.
i did'nt want to be a burden on anyone or spoil the party.
i did'nt want any attention of any kind.
STEVE said he'd have a chair for me.
ricky, you obviously think your'e a damn sight more important than me, and i'm sure that to steve you are.
and there's no reason why you shouldn't be. you and sk go back a way. he thinks your'e a great guy. maybe you are, maybe you just got all wrapped up in the 'bash kilbey' frenzy that my post seems to have unleashed.
but it was poor judgement ricky, read it again, have a look at my bands comments on all four members myspace sites.
i shouldn't have told steve off in public. it was wrong of me.
soon afterwards i thought to myself perhaps i should have kept it private, and indeed i should have done.
there was no malice in my post, but it was written whilst in pain.
as my bandmate jim has posted above
it was a tremendous gig,
it is my sincerest wish that steve gets no more aggro over this.
please people, i'm sure he just forgot. i'm of no great importance in the scheme of things, i know that. this has been a very difficult time for the whole band.
when i met and chatted with steve last year he came across as the most genuine, affable man you could imagine, a real gent.
i still think that.
i have nothing but respect and admiration for his art, music, words and principles.
where's all this hate and negativity come from?
it was a great night for the band, something they really needed,
and i did survive after all.
so, let's call off the dogs eh?
love to all, even ricky!
andy L.

7:38 AM

Anonymous said...

Thanks for a great night in London, you rocked’ thanks for years of your music, with out it there would be a void in our lives,

love Tim n Jacqui,Essex England.

Altres said...

I went to London to see the Church. Before going to find some accomodation, I went to find out exactly where the venue was, only to meet Steve. He walked with me through the Angel, helping me look for a place for the night. We wandered and met a homeless Big Issue vendor who we spoke to who recommend I use a hostel, an old drunk man with an impenetrable accent, and a community police type person, all to no avail. Steve is genuinely interested in everyone. He watches life and participates fully.

I have always found Steve to be both charming company and a profoundly insightful individual. He also appears to be a human being, and, much to my dismay, he's never levitated yet. Who'd have thought it?

In saying that it may have happened during Monday's gig, because they fucking turned down the gravity in there, I was floating.

Glad you got home safe, Steve, thanks for both the help and the best Church gig I've ever witnessed. And I've seen some fucking blinders.

Brian

MarkM said...

And Andy...
Hope you're doing better mate, I have been thinking of your troubles.
Take care of yourself

fantasticandy said...

you too mark,
every success with the new album!

Renee said...

just be you
there will always be fault finders
but we couldn't ask for anything more
and you've never given us less than your best
always
insightful,
spiritual,
comical,
beautiful

Thanks

xxoo

Finn said...

Well Steve, glad to see you are safe and uneventfully back home. I don't know what happened on the Euro tour, but I do hope that this isn't the end of the road for The Church, who have against all odds managed to keep making good music long after all their peers became washed up parodies of themselves or simply washed up.

I do hope the band can make it back to the states (for an lectric tour) again, but you also need to do what makes sense for you both individually and collectively.

It's funny, you rarely comment on the other members of the group and your relationships, which I suppose is for the best, though I always wonder...

mattdavison said...

welcome back sk.

the angel spirit guided you home.


...............M...................

Tony said...

stevie k
go rent the illusionist
and finish watching it
i thought it was fantastic

keep your head up
i, for one, appreciate all you've done
and more importantly
all you are capable of doing
indeed you are the jazzbassillionist
open up your chest and reveal your charms
to those who think you're famous
hey hey my my
puccifissionist

Brien Comerford said...

Steve Kilbey is one of the most accessible and talented rock vocalists and musicians on the planet. I sent him two e-mails and he immediately responded to me, a total stranger. He denigrates himself more than all the others in the music industry. Steve is as brilliant as Leonard Cohen and Keith Richards. He is a fucking diehard vegetarian because he respects the lives of all the Creator's creatures including the fishes. He concedes his vices and underestimates his virtues including just how great The Church and his solo CDs truly are. He loves his band members. He talks to us every single day. He is spiritual and he loves his family. No, Steve Kilbey is not Saint Francis. Saint Francis ate animals, birds and fishies. Kilbey is a Lennon/McCartney hybrid with John's depth and mysticism and Paul's penchant for great melodies and aversion to meat. As a very decadent, fallen and depraved Catholic I want to do something nice. I want to tell the world that St. Martin De Porres was the Catholic Saint who refused to eat animals, birds and fish. He looks after your's truly, a penitent. Kilbey's a veritable Saint compared to me. Hence, he inspires me.

Celticat said...

Fuck Steve,

that was good. Glad your home mate.

Love

paul lightfoot said...

Nevets. Welcome Home! I know what the first thing was that you did after closing the front door... Sparked up!! Haa! Excellent.

Glad you're back home safe.

Paul L
Auckland NZ

isolde said...

don't worry cos it wasn't about you so much as people feeling the need to save their pride and in some cases their reputations, this is a new form of communication and difficult to reconcile the intimacy and distance but its a good thing people feel they can express themselves here its a compliment to you

Celticat said...

Hi all TTB subscribers and SK accolytes - follows is copy of a comment I published on TTB a cupla posts ago. Would really like to know if anyone is interetsed.

"To those that are interested

I sent the following to MOJO magazine an intend to write to other publications, papers and radio stations.

"Hi, Bear with me. Picture a very talented group of four musicians who have been together for 26 years and still producing quality credible music and are a killer live act. They opened the Melbourne Commonwealth Games recently, the lead singer has a blog page where you can actually communicate with him, one of the guitarists sometimes answers his e-mail by calling you (I know – he called me). They are totally and staunchly independent and unaffected by current trends, and don’t play the music industry game.

Their back catalogue includes Unguarded Moment, Almost with You, Grind, Reptile, Tantalized, Under The Milky Way Tonight and only about a thousand others. ABC Radio Australia had their most recent album as Album of the Month and a couple of years ago they sold out shows at the Sydney Opera House. As a guitar band they are know as a tour de force.

Surely with a pedigree such as this, there must be some interest however; they go largely unnoticed and unrewarded. They are of course The Church – Steve Kilbey, Marty Willson-Piper, Peter Koppes and Tim Powles.

Please look into their story and their music; it’s criminal that they are not enjoying recognition.

I’ve seen them live recently (awesome), spoken with Marty and Tim (kind, intelligent and awesome players).

Please do a story on them – it is well overdue."

Perhaps if we all started making a noise - it would take a huge effort or much time out of our day - we could help Killa and the crunch raise their profile somewhat.

What do you think?

Love to all"

cohen's auntie! said...

I'm listening to some damn fine Marc Bolan and I have you to thank, Mr. Kilbey!

fast eddie & widle. said...

I see future success for "The Church"
but it may require 2 kick drums!
( or 2 drummers!)

and a great deal of bald hair!

Anonymous said...

Hi again sk,
I just got Fruit Machine in the mail, can't wait to read it, the cover looks great too!
love
Amanda

Tim said...

Great post killa! Little long, don't ya think..

Alot of people do try and do care.

It's always nice to know there are others out there.

And yes!

You are in the league of Neil Young and Cohen...

But you know who else doesn't get as much credit he deserves?

MWP

In the league of Gilmour and Young!

I have never seen your band..

I'd like to one day...

Tim in Canada

CSTCoach said...

Welcome home, killa.

:-)

ryan

Drumwise said...

I'm glad you're back home unscathed, and I'm happy that the London gig was a great one. As The Church, Steve Kilbey, Isidore, Jack Frost, Hex, etc... you all rock babee!!!

ed in fl said...

glad you are safe and back home.

ed in fl

tim said...

I agree with Celticat..

biggest band no one knows..

in probably best form at this point in their career..at least on record...

Again...never seen the band..but I hear great things about them as a live band...especially on this blog..

Spread the word...The Church is alive!

SK, I know you are not into awards...would the band accept a Rock and Roll hall of fame induction?

Someone send a letter to someone...Hello!

Over here! One of the worlds greatest bands EVER!

The HALL should be begging for you to come and play!

I've spent 20 years in the Radio industry...because music is and always has been in my life in a large way.

And the CHURCH belong in the HALL...

The Church in The Hall!!

THE CHURCH IN THE HALL!!

But that's just my opinion...I'm a fucking idiot...I don't know a god damn thing...

Symon said...

Steve....after a long tour and a long flight home...I'm not surprised that your Shadow is rattling his cage. Just have a little chat together to make sure that you're both holding up ok...and I'm sure that you'll find some peace with where things are at right now.

Anonymous said...

sk,

you are tops, for real, up there with keef and bobby d! try to kick back and take it easy ;]=~~~ don't be like me & think too much..

xo peace
k@t

Anonymous said...

Celticat,

I put forward a proposal to get some air time for SK on our national broadcaster, but then I think SK said he hates the show I approached. So I just left it.

Is there no such thing as bad publicity? (I don't know as I've never had any publicity of any sort!)

B.Bon

veleska1970 said...

i'm glad you made it home safe and sound. i'm sorry the fambly wasn't there to welcome you...how sad to be gone for a month and come home to a quiet, empty house. but i'll bet the doodles' fish were sure glad to see you!!!

"i am bitter nasty callous forgetful bastard sometimes
aint you?
and can ya admit it?
i make mistakes
i say n write things i regret
i do stupid thingsi am bitter nasty callous forgetful bastard sometimes
aint you?
and can ya admit it?
i make mistakes
i say n write things i regret
i do stupid things"
yep, been there, done that. guilty as charged. we all are. yes, the chair issue was indeed an unfortunate one, but the world didn't stop turning, and for it to generate the vile and hateful remarks that it did from certain assholes (you know who you are) was just taking things too far. (people, come on!! was all that really necessary? i mean, REALLY???)

**sigh** **shaking my head**

i believe you care, steve. if you didn't, then you wouldn't tell us fiendss the little things that you do in your blog, and what i mean by that is the direct comments that you make to us, an example being the one you made to me. i appreciated that, as i'm sure others you have reached out to have.

i'll tell you what's up with me~~i finally got my scan, but it was an MRI instead of the CT that was originally ordered. this was better, anyway, since those are considerably more detailed. i had the procedure done monday. the results should be in by the end of the week. i haven't had one in 16 years, and i must say they have come a long fucking way from the scans of yore. back in the day, the procedure was a 2-hour ordeal, and it you're claustrophobic like me, it was a nightmare to be slid into a long tube with only inches of space to spare~~it was coffin-like, about as close to being buried alive as you can get. and noisy!!! JEEZUM!!! the deafening bang as the magnet spun around was enough to wake all the dead. but the scan of monday was nice~~it was open, it wasn't as noisy, and it only took 25 minutes. (you're going to laugh~~it usually only takes 20 minutes, but because i fell asleep and jerked when i woke up, they had to do that part of the procedure again. it was easy to fall asleep because you have to remain as absolutely utterly still as possible. i apologized to the technician up and down, but he said it happens all the time. :) ) i also had a chiropractor appointment on friday. he took a bunch of x-rays, and tuesday i found out that i have some tilted vertebrae in my neck and a few rotated ones in my back. so i'm being treated for those. my poor car is a total loss with more than 80% damage~~they're coming to tow it away on saturday to junk it. my headaches have diminished somewhat, but they're still there. now just an achy, dull throb.

so.....that's what's going on in my neck of the woods, excuse the pun. but i appreciate your concern, as i do from all my fellow fiendss. we have a very delightfully peculiar little community that has formed and i have met some great people on here!! andy, i'm glad you're doing well. baal & zeus~~how's lindsay? and, while i'm on the subject, i think about (('{~_~}')) often, and i hope she is okay wherever she is.

as always, lotza love.....

isolde said...

goodluck with MRI Veleska, yeah that was a shame about (('{~_~}')) i got the impression she might have had some issues with the public relations department, at least i hope its not her health, SK you need a PA

B.Bon ... no publicity? come on you're a legend in your own lunch box

JJ said...

That's the spirit - "getting olde by rocking and rocking on," I'm getting old with ya. Keep rocking on to America; lotsa people waiting with anticipation and a welcome reception. Hoping TB's Pandemonium Circus rolls through "FreeLand" before the seasons of this year fade into winter grey. You're needed, like a tonic for weary eyes and ears. Even heard Church on local big FM station today as i pulled into work....hadda stay in the car, under the oak trees until it was over. You're still in the airwaves, invisble force.

Glad you made it back uneventfully. The Illusionist - good film, yeah ...the schmaltz factor got a little too outta control with the love interest, but better than many out today.

Celticat said...

Thanks B.Bon

Steve, would you or any of the crunchies have any objections to some of us punters approaching different magazines, radio stations et all on your behalf to tell them that there are shit loads of fans interested in The Church?

Don't want to waste your time or mine, but am really unhappy about the lack of recoginition.

Love

Celticat said...

Thanks B.Bon

Steve, would you or any of the crunchies have any objections to some of us punters approaching different magazines, radio stations et all on your behalf to tell them that there are shit loads of fans interested in The Church?

Don't want to waste your time or mine, but am really unhappy about the lack of recoginition.

Love

Belfrank said...

Inspirational Truths Killa.
Thank you!

Belfy

Anonymous said...

sk,
what about the shriek soundtrack. .......i knew i should have burnt a copy in atlanta...!!!!????


rmckhealthy

Anonymous said...

dear sk
there's no
place like home

sending love
and good vibes ...

xoxo
diane

the dean said...

Altruism, compassion,

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Anonymous said...

Killer, what I don't understand is why you have to JUSTIFY YOURSELF time and again on this blogge...you don't have to justify yourself TO ANYONE...you make beautiful things that other people love to see and hear...I can't think of a more wonderful purpose in life...the NITPCIKERS can get fucked...excuse the French...

malcolm arkey said...

Ease the whipping, old boy.
(unless you've decided to become a Catholic, that is)

Time for a little break from the travelling circus show.

In the meantime, why don't you author the new edition of Lonely Planet's "Guide to Gigging and Touring" ?

davidcwelker said...

you've got a way with words, a way with words. one of the reason i like your music, that and its rich. i was first introduced to your music back in, maybe 92 ? at a cleveland concert, the agora. man, did you guys rock. i like the raw, gritty honesty about your music. do i like every bit of it ? of course not. if i did that would make you boring, but i do appreciate it. that why i like this blog. can't be everything to everybody, you'd forget who you are.
anyway, you're hinting of the possibility of coming to the states, if it does work out, i hope you keep cleveland in mind (you packed the beachland ballroom last year, right ?).

...being here, doing this... said...

~

we don't need a "chair" if we are...

__________________________________________

STANDING IN THE CENTER

"When I replaced the wood-burning stove in my house, I had to replace the chimney, too.

The new chimney was a stainless steel tube that fit inside the old, brick chimney.

I hired a workman to do the job, and I agreed to help.

Every fall is a lesson

"Throw me the pliers,' he shouted down.

"Let me bring them up," I suggested. He was standing on the narrow top of the old brick chimney, almost thirty feet above the ground. If he tried to reach too far and lost his balance, he would fall. Below him was a rocky path.

"Throw them up," he shouted again, as though reading my mind. "I'm an Iroquois indian. We build skyscrapers. I'm not going to reach too far."

I held my breath and tossed. The pliers sailed upward in a graceful arc toward him. His legs didn't move. His waist didn't move. His chest, shoulders, and head didn't move, either. Only his left arm moved. My throw was good, and his hand closed around the pliers.

"Nice toss!" he grinned.

If the pliers had been farther than he could have reached, I knew that he would have let them fall. Even if they had brushed the tips of his fingers, I knew that he would have let them fall.

Tool after tool sailed up—screwdrivers, a drill bit, and another pair of pliers.

Some of them fell. Others didn't. It depended upon how well I could throw, not on how far he could reach. He reached as far as he could, but no further. My job was to get the tool within his range. When I did, he caught it. When I didn't, it fell.

How far do you reach for security and appreciation? How often do you experience the pain of disappointment, the agony of not getting what you very much want, or of getting what you very much do not want?

Every expectation is a reach too far. Every fall is a lesson. Eventually, you will learn the art of letting whatever is beyond your reach remain there, no matter how appealing or important it appears. Even if it is something you desperately need.

Even if it is something you long for. Even if it is something you think you cannot live without.

When that happens, you will stand in your center, no matter what comes sailing toward you, or how close or how far away it is." - Gary Zukav

_____________________________________________________

sue cee said...

Two weeks till the family's home? -Im sorry to hear that. Look forward to the debriefing, hope its as long as this.
x
ps so you're a carpenter now? :)

Everyone, dont ask whether its okay to publicise, just do it. Write it well and with reason.
(('{~_~}')) is missed

logiclust said...

From time to time i check in, and all i can ever think is that i love you. it's funny how connection can span time and space. I wonder what else...

thanks, always, thanks

Jason said...

Ya silly sod, don't get so wrapped in it.

We ( and i mean WE) are here for your muse-ings.

don't be so angry (with us)

ah crap, i got me own problems.


Smile, jazz, chi gong , a swim in the brine de oz.

make yeblik calm and happy.


take care,
theglynnisjohns



p.s. bring bugs bunny and the swallows to capistrani.

relic said...

And the sad chair wandered off into the sunset not understanding why there was nobody there on a tuesday night - squeak squeak - (it was a rusty old chair)

Leelinau said...


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davem said...

Hi SK!
I'm glad that you've arrived home safe and sound.
Thanks for everything.
I think if you re-read yesterdays posts there were very few negative comments, just a few pathetic anons.
We REALLY LOVE YOU SK!!!

Dave M
xx

koala.sprint said...

Hey Steve,
You've done the Jammed CD's, a couple of acoustice ones, b-sides collections, an album of covers. You need another style of album to release before the next Church LP.
How about picking 3 or 4 tracks from each band members solo repertoire, giving it the Church makeover and having one of the other band members sing it. Like getting Peter to sing Forget the Radio or you singing Naked Soul?
I'd love to hear Marty play on the Refo:mation tracks. Anyway, just a thought. Book Spacejunk for a couple of weeks, and release the album only via your website. That should make up any cash short-fall for the European Tour.
Or
As another of my favourite singers did last year....Record an albums worth of songs you've written for other artists, such as Fall with You, Ophelia or some Hex songs.

All the best
Stephen

eek said...

and i love what i do
and i give you the uncondescending best that i have
everytime


That's enough for me. Honestly, Steve, what more could anyone ask?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Glad the trip home went well, and hope the next two weeks pass quickly so you will be with NK, the Doodles and Bumper very soon.

eek said...

i dont need snide little comments from anonymouse
jealous little prick


and although I know you will do what you want, it only takes a few mouse clicks to rid yourself of this nastiness. I realise you are loathe to restrict the anon option of those who use it responsibly, but you leave yourself open to a lot of abuse you don't deserve too.

~ said...

the illusionist
with a bit of magic
comes a bit of the unbelievable
the ending, is only the begining
really
if you watch it completely
you'll see
its prolly better to watch the rest of it
in the comforts of home
anyhow
than on a plane after you've been sitting for hours
and of all who traveled in for the music, you traveled farther and for longer than anyone in the audience, I'm not the first to say it
a lot of supporters here hope- fully detract from the detracters
good folks
who recognise that
through complications with equipment
long drives and
vegan food is really tough to find, I must say and what ya find is not all that great
in fact, once you find a decent place you may find yourself eating there twice in one day even ;)
ya gotta do what ya gotta do
and deserve more understanding and compassion, than you received the other day
esp. for playing a stellar gig
it did defy gravity, as someone posted earlier
baby
it rockedandrolled with thunder and lightning booming electricity
from amps
despite whatever you were struggling with monday you gave it everything
all of it heart and soulfull
to a full house, so whoever says
the Church don't command an audience
should just
(ahem)
anon fools
rick is the good, the great, and the hip
just have a listen!
and who was it that said the
only expectation you can have is to expect the best from yourself
and to others expections of you:
what was it again you think about others expectations of ya?
hey thats true genius my friend
and true, that
who was it now...
a very with it on the now and not the later thank you very much kinda guy
can't quite recall....
the past 15 minutes
or so
maybe if he'd told me 5 years ago?
things a bit fizzy and fuzzy
my ears are still ringing
from all the great singing
London will do that to ya
if ya tune in and go with the flow
its easy,yeah
and alllll good
no such thing as coincidence, in my humbolted opinion

peace and luv to ya,
~J

Anonymous said...

Kilbey, get off the cross!

fantasticandy said...

yeah, i wonder about (('{~_~}'))
too.
andy.

zebob said...

Steve's comment about Grant trying to reach him reminds me of the lyrics in "Finding You." As the anniversary of his passing approaches, the words are downright eerie.

What would you do if you turned around
And saw me beside you
Not in a dream but in a song?
Would you float like a phantom
Or would you sing along?


RIP, Grant (May 6, 2006)

Not to highjack things, but there's this, too. (http://www.abc.net.au/jtv/live/)

Glad you made it back OK and are posting in fiesty form yet again. Give them the ol' one-two, killah!
Seriously, isn't the yoga and other meditative stuff supposed to bring an inner calm of sorts? Or does it temper the white-hot temper?
-z

Tim said...

Hey Mr. Stevie, don't sweat it, you are still cool.

Love from Sellersville

Anonymous said...

Take the badde with the johnny be goode....

;)

12str said...

dear SK fans(lame or healthy!)
here you have this guy,an old rocker,who is everyday putting his life and times out on display for yall...he embarks on a tour half away across the world for you...an endless drive through distant countries...hours after hours in a crowded van..waiting...soundcheck...waiting..lousy food....waiting...then comes showtime..and what a performance,energetic,hard,beautiful it takes a lot of focus and energy to do this every night...and then of to a lonely hotelroom..a couple of hours sleep,and then of again in that van..next city..next venue...facing clubowners with high hopes and bad economy...it aint all glamour folks!
im so glad the last shows turned out so well..
maybe its time to stop when youre on the top!
another page is about to be turned..books to be written..paintings to be painted...music to be recorded..children to be raised.. a mind to be explored..im sure that whatever happens,its going to be great..

new horizons..

pat

malcolm arkey said...

And remember in future boys 'n girls...

Take a deep breath.
Pause...
Look to the left.
Look to the right.
Look to the left again.
Then have some second thoughts...

...BEFORE you hit the "Publish this comment" button.

(This advice applies to moi also)

Daberhasher said...

steve, i apologize for throwing in a dirt caked two cents with my no class comment, i shoulda known better... i respect all you put up with to deliver the goods, i know it ain't easy... "where's the glamour? oh here on the bottom of my shoe..."
what i am glad for is that the band closed the tour with a blinder AND that Andy got to the show and lived to tell!!!
Ricky sounds like a right twat though, there were 1001 better ways to say what he had to say, imho...
c'est la vie...

aloha,
erik

cita said...

and I love what I do...The essence of that line is in your prose and your songs.

restaurant mark said...

glad you made it home man. and it's obvious you care...just listen to the records.
oh, and the illusionist is a really good movie. doesn't get all schmaltzy on ya. you should finish watching it sometime. take care.

Anonymous said...

Mark M, 9.51 a.m. - good one, mate. Spot on.

Anonymous said...

hi steve,

welcome home! i was sorry to read some of the comments yesterday. After spending three weeks on the road with you, I just want to tell a few things.. first, yOu were much more likely to solve a problem, then create one, and were a real pleasure to be around. You caused me zero headaches and no problems. What more can an informal tour manager/booking agent/occasional promoter.. whatever i was?? :)) ask for?
You were very kind with HS7 as well. One of my best memories of the tour is when you played "Buffalo" for Giles. For the others, Giles was roadie on the tour (cool hungarian dude). His favorite song is buffalo. It was not on the setlist, so steve played it just for him. Very nice moment. And yes, touring is awfully hard work, and I really appreciate all your efforts.

peace
KevinN

Anonymous said...

Brian Comerford, 1103 a.m. - again, this stuff needed to be said. Nice one.

woody woodmansey said...

Steve,

My Idea, September 13 - how about recording these properly, man, they're far too good to languish on decades-old demos, grotty live tapes and other people's records!

uglybassman1 said...

y'know steve, you are a younger version of me, with wider mood swings...wow, I wouldn't be here now if I swung the way you do!!!

Bassist from the 60's..middle of the Thorp/Brown/Hoff era in "siddley"...lived for music, girls and the wild life...at 63...still wield an 'axe', more 'blues' than R&B, but still

calling down baal and zeus said...

building a better anonomouse trap ...
folks and freaks alike one must learn to take it all with a grain or two of salt...how else , after all , do we become seasoned, soft and hard boiled , chilled or heated

love hard

uglybassman1 said...

...met Peter K about 18 months ago..really top guy..lives near me on Sunshine Coast.

I have been rough on my family and friends over the years and they still love me..wunda why!! I don't love me, why should they???

I guess we are all like that at some time or another eh!!

Loved the bands acoustic night here at Noosa Nov 05 more than the 'electric night' at Joes...lasted 3 minutes before we had to retire to the lounge before me pacemaker went into fibrilation!! Pete said you'd only have low power on stage...he didn't say what the front of house was going to be like...shoulduv guessed!!

The acoustic night really displayed the talent of you four guys and except for the 'wannabees' who you put in their place like me old schoolmaster, it was one of the most enjoyable concerts I've been to.

eek said...

KevinN -- the bit about Buffalo made me go "awww..." That was very sweet.

Kevin, you deserve a huge thank you from anyone who got to see any of the European shows. We have all been writing about what we'd be willing to do to help the band, but you actually did something. I'm sure there will be quite a few people more than willing to tell you everything you did wrong (there always are -- and usually they've never done it themselves), but without you I suspect there might not have been a European tour this year at all. The only people who never make errors and those who never do anything. So good on you.

And I need to give you a big thank too for helping me out (ie., saving my ass!) with the prints and cards. They wouldn't have gotten there at all without you. I'm sure you really didn't have the time to take care of my mess, but you did anyway. You're a star!

John Garratt said...

I've been sick, and I obviously have been missing something. What's going on now? Who is accusing SK of doing what?

John Garratt

Anonymous said...

save your fingers all the typing and next time just write whaaaaa whaaaaaaa in caps, it will save us from reading this dribble and then you can do something better with your time. If you really don't care what people think then why do you bother with the rebuttles? write something good, no one wants to hear an old rocker whining. get over yer self already.

cronos said...

Everything was ok yesterday til that Ricky bloke piled in, wasn't it?

Anonymous said...

hi eek,

thanks alot for your comment. Very kind. With the prints, you must thank the lovely girls in my office, they did all the hard work. And stupid me forgot to have Sk sign a few for them...was all too busy at the end, and I am generally bad about asking such things.
And yes, i surely made many mistakes, but i reckon i did a few things right as well. But i did learn ALOT...there's no education like experience:)
KEvinN

RICK MAYMI said...

Glad you're home Steve and I hope to see you soon!

Can you believe how these hayenas have layed into me here??? It's amazing! Quite frankly, I find it damn entertaining! Name calling doesn't quite cut it for me though. I mean, people are gonna have to do better than that! I don't have time to care about being called arrogant, a twat or being accused of being attracted to men, either. I am not easily offended. Gotta dig much deeper. Tell me something about myself that's true! Meet me in a dark ally way or something...I CALL OUT ANY OF YOU BOTTOM FEEDERS TO COME TO ONE OF MY GIGS COMING TO A TOWN NEAR YOU AND WE'LL SETTLE YOUR BEEF WITH ME ONE-ON-ONE...ONCE AND FOR ALL!!! COME TELL ME TO MY FACE BUDDY!!! I'LL TAKE ALL YOU EVER HAD AND MORE AWAY FROM YOU!! YES! BELIEVE IT!!!
As some of you know, I am a hot-blooded Latin man and I come from a long line of Freedom Fighting Revolutionaries and Felons...

I am sure Steve would greatly appreciate it if you backed the fuck up and off of me as well as him!

I am easy to find, I am everywhere ALL the time AND I have white pointers circling you right FUCKING now!!! SO WATCH IT!!!

I am going into town. to Soho to do some record shopping...any of you people in London who feel you have something to settle with me should come meet me at Sister Ray on Berwick street in about an hour...Bring it on!!! I'll be waiting for you!!!

OR ARE YOU TO BUSY WATCHING FOOTY???
OH THAT'S RIGHT! YOU DON'T GET OUT OF "BOOTS" UNTIL 7:00pm

Menacingly yours,
Ricky
xx

jack dempsey said...

Ooh, get her!
Ere, Steve, if war & violence is always wrong, what d'ya think of Ricky's latest?!

snowfaller said...

Welcome back to Bondi, Steven.

Enjoy normal life again for a while...

Anonymous said...

Hey Ricky

Sorry I offended you with the gay crap, it was totally uncalled for, and I apologise whole heartedly. I'm woudnt be afraid of fronting up to you if I could, but I still want apologise. Fuck the chair.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there Steve (anti-gunner, you!) and don't let the negative comments of one or two drag you down. Enjoy being home again, and thanks for touring for those of us fans that got to see you & the band.

Daniel W.
aka centuryhouse

ps - Ricky's a stand up guy and a pleasure to hang out with.

martin atkins said...

Hey Rick,
why the long face?

Anonymous said...

Ah I'm sick o this shit. Ricky, I have no idea who you are or what your relationship is to Steve or how you've pissed off half o these commenters cos I can't be arsed reading yesterday's comments to find out. But fuck em, man. Just do what y'do & fuck em.

CSTCoach said...

"Menacingly yours,
Ricky"

LMAO

Not interested in the current hot issue in the least, but I have to say that this is a brilliant letter closer. Mind if i borrow that one on occasion? :-)

ryan

Anonymous said...

all i have to say about this shit is that sooner than you think fans will have to take a chair to steve at the shows

Anonymous said...

This blog deserves to be number one! Springer ain't got nothing on the Time Being's blog sometimes. A chap who inspires a disparate mixture of ass-kissing (from some) and derision (from a lot fewer) is a true character indeed!

Allister
PS Thanks Mr Page for the Jack Frost download...a nice little gig to have to remember G McL by, and I recommend everyone pick up the Go Betweens DVD "That Striped Sunlight Sound"- it's great.

Scott said...

whoa. this "Ricky" guy is ready to throw down...

davem said...

The amount that you care comes through in everything that you do.
And I thank you for shaking my hand. I've got the photo to prove it!!! Been boring all me mates with it..."me and killa"!!!!
Ricky - I'm really enjoying your posts, great fun. If ever you're near Brum I'll buy you a beer (but I wouldn't come if I were you it's a pretty lousy place!!!!). I'm certainly going to check out more BJM!!
Take care Steve.

Davem
xx

Anonymous said...

errr...ricky....i'm in london and quite fancy kicking the shit out of you. central london is a bit inconvienient for me though, would you mind geting on a tube out to uxbridge (you'll need the picaddilly line for the easiest journey).

gareth,notts said...

i'm a fan of bob dylan,neil young and leonard cohen,and yourself.maybe cos you admire them you think you're not in their league,but you're in a league of your own,above theirs,not miles above,but still above,in whatever you do,solo or with the band.sorry some fuckwits marred it for you but london was fuckin special,a phenomenal gig in my humble opinion!

Anonymous said...

the curse of the whingeing poms!

jim dude.

Anonymous said...

I WISH THE ASS KISSES WOULD GET A REAL LIFE !

gareth,notts said...

btw,all this ricky-baiting,i dont know the guy but have met him a few times,n he was cool,as far as i can see he's just defending a friend,you ricky-baiters never defended a friend before? get over it n chill the fuck out fer chrissakes!!!

zebob said...

I'm enjoying the drama courtesy of Ricky's infantile comments. What is this? Grade school? Are you actually calling out the guy who had a heart attack? What's next? Punching out little old ladies? Your lack of class amuses me greatly.
-z

Anonymous said...

how about some ricky questioning...so ricky, is courtney taylor as big a prick as he appears?

Anonymous said...

hi steve
we have all our ups and downs.
You made my day in copenhagen with a great gig and you signed all my records backstage.And that was a lot,you know.And thats very nice.

have a fantastic day

Thor-Arne

Cee said...

Since we're not being very positive or creative I'll just waist more space and time...

What's for dinner?
Lunch?
Breakfast?
I'm contemplating opening my can of Wolfgang Puck's Thick Country Veggie soup...but I dunno...
Any ideas?

Cee said...

...and learn how to correctly use and spell waste!

Hiyaaaaaaaa!

Themattdavison said...

Steve others alike.

I feel that this is / was a very normal problem in society this disorder is known as "unpleasant whiney Pom Syndrome" Sk I know your lineage and birth place was England hey' I am DAVISON from Sussex was a Perry from Scotland. But!! Fricken POMS are bleaters and real pains.. in general. and that is the reality.....

Ya see I canne make out too much what's going on but simply any issues related to the set up of a gig fall on the venue people "Don't ya think.

That one's done and dusted.

I just wish people commenting here would try original and profitable thoughts and not dull mundane details.

Enjoy the time at home.. Mabee if ya got the time you could do me a painting..I hope that 'Epic looks good on yr wall.

A real
Mattdavison

Anonymous said...

Shut up matt. No pom could ever be as bleating irritating as u. And you've never had an original thought in your life so put a sock in it.

Altres said...

I think that all right-thinking people in this country are sick and tired of being told that ordinary, decent people are fed up in this country with being sick and tired... I'm certainly not! But I'm sick and tired of being told that I am.

Anonymous said...

Ooo Someones Very jelious of Mattdavidson.
And prob Steve Kilbey.

Weird.

Lauren

Anonymous said...

Oops jealous
i ment sorry.

can anyone tell me what album almost with you is on.

new church fan in France

Lauren

veleska1970 said...

to lauren: it's on "blurred crusade". excellent album~~i hope you enjoy it.

veleska1970 said...

to lauren again: and oh, i forgot~~welcome new church fan!! you won't be disapppointed!!

Anonymous said...

i have a good mind,to put you all over my knee....for a bloody good spanking..........no......not justfor my own pleasure........love genx xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Anonymous said...

i can assure you, no one is jealous of MD

Anonymous said...

Excercises in loyalty.

B.Bon

aussie theresa said...

I have been reading steves fantastic blogs for a year now and it is a great way to wind down and escape reality. I also get much enjoyment from reading peoples comments, however it is becoming more aparent lately that people are abusing this for their own distaste for other people. I find this very sad and extremely annoying, firstly that people have the nerve to pull steve down and other commentors. I have worked with matt davison and whoever keeps slamming him on these comments, needs to grown a brain and a heart and waste their energy somewhere else!! Why not stick to the real issues and quit the petty comments.

Anonymous said...

everyone needs to sit back and take it easy. chair, you would agree with that wouldn't you?

Anonymous said...

Where are you sk??????, this is getting outta control, (but I'm kind of enjoying it hee hee!)
I hope your latino buddy Ricky makes it to Melbourne one day he sounds funny and wild (and talented of course), maybe play a gig together with you, yeah!!!!
Love
Amanda

tim said...

That's it...I'm not reading anymore....not the comments anyway!

Anonymous said...

Dear Anonymous 6.11am...don't you mean ARSE KISSERS, not ARSE KISSES, you illiterate bottom smooching twat...

Queen Hatshepsut said...

Oh people! I spend all day teaching second graders (7-8 year olds) and I don't see this kind of infantile behaviour in my class! Then again I run a tight ship. Sometimes adults are worse than grade schoolers! (Yes I include myself!) Let's just smoke the peace pipe or I'm gonna give all of you a time out! ;)
love - especially to steve, andy and rick
denise xxoo

p.s. what would take sk for you and the guys to come back to the states? ok, the west coast? i'll work all your so. calif. shows and pay for tickets and buy you yummy food and um, bring you things from the garden, haha. i'm obviously not above bribery.

Anonymous said...

this sure beats poetry and all that jazz,


richardmchealthy

Anonymous said...

relic LOL

This comments section is hilarious

Go Ricky! Luv ya too Andy and oh yeah you too Steve and all ya beautiful psycho fans

veleska1970 said...

yep....it does get in-ter-esting here....mmmmm hmmmmmm

wonkerbar said...

Smack, crackle pop.
Someones on crack!!

Just seen mattdavisons new film trailer on youtube

He's great in it. Plays a wacko soft crim called Nickle.

He is very talented.

Check it out

www.youmoveyoudiemovie.com

all you others out there without talent Shut up.

stealthblue said...

Funny stuff!! AMAZING how a few yahoos and jealous little pricks can cause such a stir.

NEXT!!

Hey, Steve, Ricky, Coach, Sue C, Veleska, Dave, Cee, Queen, Matt D., Mark, Daniel, Andy, B-Bon, Kat,...(all the rest of you TTBers, how ya doin'?? ;)

Seriously, at the risk of being called (in a sobbing, quivery voice) a "sycophant" (as that seems to be the word of choice for respecting fans,friends, fellow artists, etc.)...PEACE AND LOVE TO ALL...even the parade pissers. Breathe deep and enjoy TTB.
Thanks.

Peter Podcast said...

Dare I leave a comment?
Isn't democracy and freedom of speech a wonderful thing?
Maybe not?
We could disable anonymous comments?
But that wont keep out the riff raff.
Henry Rollins has his own talk show but I can't imagine Steven doing that.
Perhaps we should all ignore the chip with the chap on his shoulder?
Even wierder is that I showed DIG to the class yesterday.
Everyone should see it.
Best rock doc ever?
Maybe.

daniel 12 said...

This Ricki and the backstage chair episode has had me in stitches.

Nigel Tufnel himself couldn't top it.

I love you guys! , Matt D too.

Anonymous said...

Mr Kilbey, i have just one comment to make to you. Reading your blog i suggest you TAKE CARE WHEN CHOOSING YOUR FRIENDS IN THE FUTURE, if i had a friend like Ricky, sure wouldn't leave much room for enemies!!

Anonymous said...

is it ok to eat eggs?

Anonymous said...

Omlettes are fine, scrambled is out.

Anonymous said...

steve seems to have bully friends uh oh

gareth,notts said...

matt d,be careful who u slagging off,we aint all bleaters n whingers,but we could all be excused if we were anyway,have you ever had to live in england for any length of time?,if not consider yerself lucky,it aint up to much!;)

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